something's missing...

It's sometimes hard to notice, who do you really care and cherish the most. I mean, my lil' sister might just be my best friend also... Everyone else just keeps pushing me aside - someone's always more important than me. I hate it, that makes me feel just worthless - am I then? I miss Eini - and she just left. We fight and she pisses me off 24/7, but still... If I admit crying, am I loser, a fool? I try my best to be nice to my so call'd friends, even If I really wanted to say "FUCK YOU SLUT, BURN IN HELL" to them. This acting makes me sick. I just cannot...